As you made me cry.
You’ve brought such love and joy
And you didn’t have to try.
When Tom and the kitties moved
Budha was all alone
It broke my heart to see her sad
So I brought you to our home.
When I first held you in my arms
...well...you drooled on me.
But it was because you were over excited
Cute and adorable; weird as that may be.
I don’t know what to do for you
To help the disorder in your mind.
I’ve looked everywhere for answers
But there is no cure I can find.
I don’t know what to do baby kit
you’re so full of life and love
Unfortunately there seems no solution
But it doesn’t seem fair to send you above.
You’re not even 3 years old
And physically in great health
But this condition in your brain
Is causing you to hurt yourself.
I wish I knew how to help you
Every day my heart is breaking
I’ve only had you for 2 months
And what a bond we’ve all been making.
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I wrote the beginning of this 3 days ago
That night you were so much worse
I completely broke down, I didn’t know how
To save you from this curse.
That night and the next morning
I smothered you with love
Knowing I had to let you go
Nothing left that I could think of.
I brought you to the shelter
I was so upset I couldn’t breathe
When I tried to hand you over
You turned and clung to me.
There is a constant lump in my throat
And empty hole in my chest
But I’m happy that they’re looking for a cure
And believe me they are trying their best.
I don’t know if this was the right thing
But I know they’re caring for you
And if I can help you, I’ll fight to get you back
No matter what I have to do.
Maybe this isn’t in your head
And something is physically wrong...
Maybe I should have been more patient
But was scared to wait too long.
I’ll do anything to get you back
If I know I can get you well
But seeing you hurt and not having you
Are both equal kinds of Hell.
Budha wonders where you are
Her brother kit she misses.
She loved you from the start;
Those sweet little headbutt kisses.
I hope you can return to me
And I’ll know how I can help you
But no matter what you need to know
How much I love you, Yogi Blue.
Maybe removing the tail will stop yogi from that, a lot of cats do not have tails. just a thought.
ReplyDeleteTrust me...everything has been thought of. I didn't think it was possible, but I really think I have covered the ENTIRE internet on this topic. :( It's a possibility that removing his tail (or at least part of it) will relieve whatever pain he might be having...but there is an equal possibility that if this is like an OCD thing....it won't stop, he will go for the nub or another limb. :( Sometimes I want to punch life in the face. I never would have given him up if I had SOME idea how to fix this (and know that it would work). Hurts my heart.
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